it is my belief that at death, though our bodies may return to the earth, our spirits face a future that while not certain in direction is certainly not an end. Does this mean we should not grieve the passing of a loved one? Of course not but while we mourn our loss we should also celebrate their past life and continued journey.

As you will have seen from the memorial thread on the Valley he was a very well loved man. I had only known him for two years we were members of several forums and both of us moderate on UKPagan.
he was very active in the interfaith community as well as the pagan scene on the internet believing that there should be an understanding and recognition of all faith being valid in a sense.


I'm not exagerating when I say that his wisdom, knowledge, and humour will be missed for many years by hundreds of people all over the world :(

When talking about Kev (Cosmic_Fool, also known as Cos or Coz ) it is difficult to know where to start really, I never knew him away from the internet but considered him friend, well more than a friend really, to so many of us he was family. He was someone I respected greatly for his knowledge and wisdom, he had a way of dealing with situations and difficulties with a gentle approach letting his humour ease tensions and diffuse any problems. Although that really only shows that he was an excellent and well respected Moderator and on other sites Administrator.

Cos had battled several illnesses in recent years, it was a constant up hill struggle for him but he always did it with a smile despite the severe pain and extreme discomfort he was obviously in. Most recently he had problems with reoccurring cellulitis which at one point went systemic, though he managed to fight it off even without antibiotics for a while. He had many problems with ulcers and infections in his legs making it incredibly painful and difficult to walk, especially when combined with severe asthma. At the time of writing this the cause of death has not been announced.

So many of us in the on line community knew Cos for his wisdom, his wonderful poetry which appeared in several pagan publications and diaries, but also in sci-fi publications too. But to really know Cos I suggest reading his website, Fools Paradox which can be found at http://Foolsparadox.co.uk The site shows his deep love of Sci-fi, he had watched Dr Who all his life, and loved it from the start to the point that one of his wishes was to have the theme tune played at his funeral. The site also shows his spiritual side describing his path and his beliefs. There are also many of his poems on the site too. He really was a multi talented bloke with depths to him that still remain hidden in a way, though through his works we get a good glimpse of the man he was. Unfortunately the site will not last forever but his friends in the pagan community are looking at ways of creating a permanent memorial for him.

Cos was a font of information on so many subjects, and to be honest I really only ever scratched the surface of the man which saddens me as I know I will not get the chance now until I have passed on myself, but I know he will be there to greet me with a warm smile and no doubt a few quips.

Cos lived at home with his mum, his father having died 14 years previously. His home was filled with all sorts of memorabilia from tv sci-fi shows in particular Dr Who, to the point that trying to get to some cupboards was a long arduous task.

He had a great respect for all faiths and worked hard within the interfaith community on-line trying to bridge gaps and build a common respect, which looking at the sheer volume of tributes to him he was definitely successful with. There are Pagans, Heathens, Christians, Jews, Muslims and many many others all over the world mourning his loss. To be honest though, I think the deepest felt loss will be in the pagan community as he was such a vibrant and well respected person he had a presence about him which could be easily felt over the internet. To get an idea of just how much he meant to so many of us, a couple of people have been collating all the memorial posts together to be able to give to his mum who is now totally alone, having no other family: at the last known count there were 179 pages from forums and message boards. This number is increasing all the time and does not include all the Blog posts which are being collected by someone else. I would expect that there are well over two hundred pages of condolences for his mum to read through and to take comfort from. The sheer amount of respect and outpourings of emotion for Kev is incredible, it really is, I am sure he would be very very proud of the fact he impacted so much on so many peoples lives, and also I think he would be totally embarrassed by it too.

Knowing him from on-line it has been a joy to hear some of the stories about him from his mother. Kev also had a collection of cuddly toys, something that although unknown to us, does not come as a surprise. He loved to bake cakes, learning as a young boy with his mother, and he loved dressing up for work fundraising events, even borrowing his mothers’ tights and lipstick for the panto dame, a photo familiar to many of us on-line. His mother recalls Kev wearing a snowman outfit, complete with woolly hat and scarf on a boiling hot summer day. He loved to make people smile, make people laugh, he was always happy, forever playing the fool. And now he is the Cosmic Fool, for somewhere in the skies above us there is a star named Cosmic Fool, named after him as a present for his 40th birthday. I do not know it’s exact location but I feel I do not need to. For me Coz will live on in all those stars that shine so brightly, he will live on for me in my heart and soul. I greatly mourn his passing but I also celebrate the life of the great man that was Kev, our very own Cosmic Fool. To look up into the sky to see the stars twinkling is to know he is still with us, still shining his brilliance and joy into our lives.

To read some of the tributes for him on the main pagan website he was a member and Moderator of visit

http://thevalley.ukpagan.com/....php?showtopic=13514

also have a look at the following Pagan & Christian Moot thread too.

http://paganandchristianmoot.co.uk/...or...read.php?t=4375

Cos lived by 8 virtues and from my view lived by them successfully

* To honour Nature.
* To honour my family and friends.
* To honour my gods and any other allied spirits.
* To honour my path.
* To honour my word and deeds.
* To honour the words and deeds of others.
* To honour freedom and the law.
* To honour truth over falsehood.

Having read through all the above, it somehow seems to miss who he was in a way, yes it gives an insight into him and what he was like but it comes no where near the man and just how special he really was... to be taken so young at only 42 was a great shock to us all.

Very sadly missed and mourned by many, though his life and his successes are celebrated and will last in our memories of him and also in his writings.

A few lines from one of his poems, The Green Temple, seems to be appropriately fitting at this time,

"I offer up a prayer of gratitude;
Both for my life and for this privilege.
A flash of electric blue zips downstream:
A kingfisher to carry my prayer?
My time is up.
I move on knowing that I can not return.
This temple will be gone,
Such a moment is a blessing,
One rarely granted but joyfully received.
One day I may find the Green Temple again."

Rest well Cos, May you find the Green Temple in the Summerlands