I feel like Rod Scribner and Nazi Donald today

Oooh, man, i'm having it TOO tough today, right now i am having to deal with an inherited falsehood and an charlatan black neanderthal impostor Lul Matan Samatar (no serious offense to actual blacks and racism is totally out of the question and none of it was intended thank you very much), well today on a walk, i successfully overcame her and right now i'm actually feeling like i'm 100% ready to kill myself by flying off the balcony and going down to the stars and to the basement, right now the inherited falsehood has me living in a badly built, unfairly hap-hazardous (unfair for example every upstairs bedroom has an installed padded window frame but MINE .) bad excuse of a living structure/neighbourhood, stinky, smelly, grimy and completely unsafe craphole both inside-outside!!!...

And right now today, i feel VERY miserable and i've returned to the forum extremely weakened and out-of-place and out-of-flow and right now i also feel very sick and i'm taking an already high risk in posting something extremely serious and un-PC (political correctness is VERY EVIL!.) on this forum and i just can't take it anymore, AARRRGGHHHHH!!! , just like how Donald Duck couldn't stand it anymore in Der Fuehrer's face (he couldn't stand being who he was not supposed to be and his background was all screwed up to conform to Nazi standards).....

Right now, i'm obviously figuring out why the inherited falsehood i'm seriously fighting through is SO VERY CLEARLY REAL!, and i'm also seriously figuring out why i can't really cry in tears, (at this stage now, the only thing i can ever cry in tears AT ALL EVER is if i pound and clock my head really badly in order to let my emotions out quicker..) also here's what i've figured out so far......

This mostly likely is is that i'm very CLEARLY experiencing what it's REALLY like to NOT EVEN EXIST AT ALL and also what it is REALLY like to NEVER BEEN BORN AT ALL!!!, and the inherited falsehood i'm going through is CLEARLY a world in which i was never EVER born and i don't exist AT ALL!!!.

In fact when i'm in a situation like this, i can't let my emotions out and all because i don't EVEN have a life, have you've ever CLEARLY felt like you never had a life whatsoever, huh?, think about it!.

And, also along with this i've been dealing with a lot of garbage, anyone here don't like Islam?, i've been dealing with THAT for 17 years now, and ALL of what I've dealt with so far outside of this forum is clearly starting to REALLY dive into Donald Duck's Nutziland experience - true when Donald Duck ACTUALLY WOKE UP TO LIFE and ALL he knew what he was for REAL in that he was an all-american citzen and his background was all of that, not stupid Nutziland.


Right now, I've actually REALLY have regretted leaving this forum, many weeks after i had retired and left the forum for good I've escaped from the falsehood for awhile and i was starting to find my true self (like a newborn kitten searching for a REAL identity) and had an adventure at the mall, i knew my effort foiled when the Falsehood finally caught me from the TV set in the mall and brought me home (in which it was not at all) from the mall an extremely weak and stupid loser individual.....

In fact i have gotten sick and tired of it all and the whole inherited falsehood with it and right now i'm actually not feeling too good right now and obviously to end it ALL, death (and suicidal with it) is OBVIOUSLY NEVER EVER THE SOLUTION....

I really need ACTUAL HELP, quick, help that will get me anywhere, i hope i have some REAL friends on this forum that will INDEED understand how to both lose and beat what i am going through right now!....

Now, this whole forum is starting to feel like a REALLY, REALLY CLOSE TO HOME and CLOSE TO PROPER LIFE AND EXISTENCE, really it is!.

And as for the Rod Scribner tidbit: the way i came out of the mall that time, was how Rod Scribner returned to Termite Terrace from TB an extremely weakened individual and a somewhat even more fussier and irritated and even more out-of-flow altogether,,,


Apologies for the strong language on this thread, it's REALLY not the color that matter, but the person INSIDE that counts, i do not mean any serious offense that you very much and i'm sorry if i caused any racism on this thread, hopefully no harm done.

And this is also a sharing site too, so this should be a place to talk about how you feel and how sad, mad and irritated and discouraged you are today!.

Hopefully, when i wake up from the inherited falsehood BS and EVERYTHING OF IT ALL to life and properhood i shall finally meet up with some old friends in person again .

NOW, during the process, i have learned: if you don't exist and completely not there by not even been born, do not expect to experience nothing cyberspace, there always going to be something and there's ALWAYS something!.

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Overworked.